I blogged about my older daughter’s struggle with ADD (and mine, let’s face it!), as well as our decision to give medication a try. It was an agonizing decision, and something I thought about and prayed about and struggled with for about two years before finally acting and taking her in to see about starting some kind of medication.
I went to fill it at the pharmacy, and the pharmacist (who is newer and is still getting to know us) expressed his concern that we were going this route. And while I do understand that it’s his job as a pharmacist – and that this kind of caring is one thing I love about our pharmacy – I was really put off by the nearly 10 minute lecture he was giving me about ways to get around medication. Even after I explained that we homeschool, that I’ve been dealing with this with natural means since Kindergarten, and that this was something I’ve given a lot of thought to.
I wish he had listened to me as much as he wanted me to listen to him that afternoon, because I explained this to him, and that we made this decision together as a family, and that this was something we were hoping would help us to find some joy in our daily life (and especially in homeschooling) that was getting lost amongst what I have come to feel like is constant nagging about every least thing.
What wound up happening was that I was thrown back into that doubt that plagued me for months before I finally decided to have her evaluated for ADD and look into the medication. I started wondering if I really had tried everything possible, if I was pushing her too hard, if we just needed more time. I still went back to pick up the medicine the next day, but I had knots in my stomach as I pulled up to the pharmacy.
I thank God for my friends, though, who saw my complaint about the incident on Facebook and offered support both there and in person. Not a single person said I wasn’t trying to do what was right for my kids. Every one of them said that I know my girls better than anyone; while the pharmacist meant well, he’s not in charge of my kids: I am. And every person said that I was right to do what we’d given so much prayer and contemplation to.
I’m still hoping that I can get her to write a bit about her experiences and how she’s feeling before and after starting this medication. We’re only a few days in, and I haven’t tried to do a lot of school work yet, especially since last week was Vacation Bible School week, and she was one of the aides. Maybe we can write a tandem piece on it after a full week of school to see how things are going.
In the meantime, please pray for us as we move into this new territory.